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Princess Tessy - The Princess Diary - March 2003 March 30 23:59 I have felt sick the whole day and stayed in bed with my hugfriends. Now i feel better, so tomorrow should be more interesting than today.  Now back to bed with me.March 29 17:32 I visited city today and continued getting things that will make me happier. A little secret what i got today, because on Monday i will buy more of the same things and write about it. I still have not bought new flowers for my room window but that i will probably do next week. Then i think shopping days are over for a while, i mostly buy things i have wanted for a longer time so i know i really want them. Except in food shop sometimes i get things i just see and want, icecream or so. Mmm. Anyway just now i tried to move photos from digital camera to computer, it didnt work. Windows said memory card isnt formatted, and i could format it. But i did not want to format the camera memory because i had photos in it when Mr Bear was modeling my new blue cloak and he looked really cute. *hug* Well i could not move the photo files to computer, so i had to format memory. But strange... it is a 128Mb camera memory, Windows said to format for 26Mb where did the other 100Mb go? And just when i had formatted away the photos camera beeped for low battery. So i will have to wait while batteries get recharged and try to figure out that memory and things tomorrow. I think Mr Bear can model my cloak again so no big loss the pictures can be taken again. I dont know what to do this evening but there is tv to watch if i dont think of something else. Figure skating worlds, and also horse jumping and such. Probably some movie or whatever too. I wanted to visit a friend and do something fun but nobody is home so i have to think of something myself. Maybe i just stay home and give Mr Bear many *hugs* He could need some extra hugs because latest days i have spent much Happy World taxes. But Mr Bear thinks i am the most important, and he knows i dont throw away his taxes on useless things much, so when i get happier again he is a happy tax collector even when the Princess takes a lot of the moneys he collected. Most other months i want *hugs* from Mr Bear, not take his moneys. Hugs are much nicer. Off with computer, i should go do something useful.March 27 22:50 I have had a boring headache all day so no computer for me. Mr Bear helps me feel better with his magic soft paws, i think i will be ok again tomorrow. March 26 22:26 I have tried to think mostly about myself lately, how to forget things that hurt and get back my positive thinking. It is beginning to work. Nice weather is a big part, other thing is i got the idea to spend Happy World taxes to make me (and Mr Bear! *hug*) happier. We now got a nice new fluffy pillow for the cozy bed. Mr Bear who rules my bed a lot is pillow expert, he says new pillow is much nicer than the old wich had become flattened and boring. And then also the bed changed from black to white, because i think that is nicer. We also got new mattress to cozy bed so it is very nice now. Almost like a whole new bed, but the bed itself is not new only most other things on it... Also a new little table next to bed, no more black there it is now a nice round wood table i saw half a year ago and wanted ever since then. Now i have it. I also got a new clock, because my old stopped working half a year ago. And there has been more spending of Mr Bear's taxes... i got two new nice cloaks, one blueish and one white. Very cozy same as my old grey cloak. I asked Mr Bear to model my blue cloak some day ago he looked so cute, except clothes was much too big for him. He says my cloaks are very nice and cozy, and think those who want one from our little Shop later will like them. Well that is all about that... i dont usually get so much happier by shopping things, but latest days it has helped. Because when i beginned thinking about what things i have wanted to get for a long time, i keep head busy with that, and negative things stay away. There are some things left i want to get, mostly i want new flowers for my room window i will find some nice flowers and pots when visiting city on Friday. So that is mostly what i have been busy with this week except usual things. I know tonight i will sleep so well in our new cozy bed, and when i wake up Mr Bear and all the other hugfriends will be there smiling as they always are. When i wake up tomorrow i will be smiling too, because after some weeks feeling more or less bad, things are more positive again. Oh well... now i sit here writing in computer and listen to the DI internet radio, music also can help me feel happier. Not much happened in my webpages lately, because i realised i have to get happier before i can sit at computer for hours and update webthings. There will be things created and updated soon, maybe tomorrow, maybe next weekend, surely before next week. Maybe visit me and hugfriends through Live Window this weekend and jump in our cozy bed. Oh no Mr Bear says to me i shouldnt jump in the bed, so i guess he dont want guests to do that. But guests can sit in our cozy sofa and soon see our new green flower friends in window. Special *hugs* to all who sent me Smiles and nice emails lately, they too help me feel happier, i will try to be at computer tomorrow and write emails back. Now i think extra many hours for sleep would be nice so i am rested tomorrow when sunshine wakes me up. March 21 06:43 Early morning, I feel so smiley waking up today. Maybe because i got some extra big *hugs* from Mr Bear. Maybe because the sun is shining outside. Maybe because i think positively whenever possible and dont let yesterdays bother me much. Maybe because i found smiles in my email box. Too early in day to sit here at computer and write much, i have to go eat breakfast and think of some fun things to do today and this weekend. March 18 10:09 Today i archived about a year of diary notes, they will be in my fan site to read for those who are very interested in the past. As i did September 3 last year, the empty Princess Diary begins with a nice happy ! Wee! And for certain special reasons, the archived diary is back. (July 2007) March 17 20:33 So, today it seems US decides to start war. Maybe they start World War 3, there is no way to know today. But this news add new sadness to me and the hugfriends. We saw at the end of news, a scared woman in Badgdad who didnt know where to go or what to do. At the end she just cried in front of camera and couldnt say anything more. That was last our countries news reporter filmed before leaving Iraq. I will write this here and anyone who does not agree with me can get lost and stay away. George W Bush is an idiot. War is never a good solution. That is the last thing i will write about such negative things here... the Happy World has been very much appreciated during sad times. I think the Happy World will be needed even more in future, beginning this week. The old Diary will get archived, and no matter how sad or angry i get with stupid politics or negative people, it will not be mentioned here. I will try to be at computer all week to create the new Happy World, for me, and you. In case you dont have the latest news yet, Bush is supposed to give Saddam an ultimatum to leave Iraq quickly or USA will attack. Iraq has already delivered a message to news agencies that their dictator will not run away. So... the real world truly sucks today. Saddam sucks the most, Bush is very close on position 2. March 16 22:03 I just got a new idea, maybe i send the gift to myself. Mr Bear says i should do that and not send anything to those who hurt me. Mr Bear knows how much my mind is troubled by what happened. I also know if i send the gift to myself, it will not be wasted and i will like it a lot. Maybe i do that, i could need some nice things to make me again. Now i will watch tv and eat popcorns with all the hugfriends. Next week i really have to put the strange "friends" behind me, thinking about such negative things is bad for the Happy World. I have to think about future, because that i can change and make positive. Past days are history.March 16 18:36 Oh well. I try and try and try to forget about my best internet friend. It seems to be impossible, it just keeps coming back into my thoughts. I try to think about people who are still friendly, and about whatever other things i can. But once a little tiny piece of memory comes back, it takes over my thoughts. So i still cant be much creative, or much happy. It just doesnt work. I am so hurt by a friend not caring at all what is the truth or not, just ignoring me after so much time as friends. I always supported my best friend and expected nothing much in return. Hmm. I should not write here, because this is not much happy or positive. But since the situation has troubled me now for weeks i realise i cant just put it behind me. And in some ways, that should not be possible with real friendships. Because friends dont just one day turn around and leave, if they really are good friends. At least i never thought of friendships that way. I would never do to other people, what has been done to me. I know some things about myself that will never change, things i believe in strongly and have done so way before the best friend showed up on internet and wrote an email. Anyway... i have one last idea i can do. One that will cost me a lot of happy world moneys, but i think it could show my bestest friend i am a real good and trustworthy friend, not just someone who will say "ok, someone told you lies and made you not like me" and then i leave. Because i did nothing wrong. And even if i am soooo upset this situation happened, i still want my best friend back. Neither she or i deserved this to happen, because as far as i know, none of us are responsible for it. I could explain that here, but no use and most people will not understand internet tech things anyway. Some may think sending a gift to a friend who suddenly treated me bad is useless. Do you? I think like this... If she get the special gift, maybe she understands i value her friendship quite a lot. If she just throws the gift away, i did what i could to at least make her listen to my side of everything, and understand it. I really dont want my best internet friend to forget me based on completely false information. I think most people would not want to loose a good friend because of someone else spreading craptalk. Well i dont know, maybe it is just a waste of Mr Bears taxes, we dont have much moneys saved we value time (and other things) more than moneys in the Happy World. I will try next week again to get more things done, this weekend i have mostly been in bed with Mr Bear thinking about this or that. I dont want to think about the things that make me sad, but they just keep entering and taking over. I just got email from Bruce, who reminded me one thing that always help sad thoughts go away. Sunshine and spring weather. I hope sunshine and warmness stays here next week too, then i will try to be outside as much as possible. When i am not out in sunshine, i will keep busy with sewing new clothes so i cant think about much else. Then i also cant get sad thoughts every day, i hope. Emails from a roleplayer reminded me i have to create Cosplay pages too. Even if i dont feel very happy right now, i write 's because they are much nicer than sad faces. And a sad face makes nobody happier. At least sad faces dont make nice people happier, perhaps some jealous or negative people like sadness but i dont... so to help myself... and another March 13 22:05 I am so tired, i think early bedtime with all the hugfriends is a good idea today. I see the pictures are all slow again, i dont know why and too tired to move webthings around today. I visited the photo shop again, they had no same size memory card of the type i can put in my camera. So i had to get an even bigger photo memory. It cost some more, but i guess too much photo space is better than much too little. With old memory card there was only room for 10 photos, now the counter says room for 162 photos before camera has to be emptied. I have not made anything much in webpages yet, sorry for those who maybe wait for new things or surprises. It is just i have to do other things to get happier again. It is very difficult for me to forget the special internet friend i lost, and internet reminds me about it, so i dont want to sit here with computer too much yet. I will put live camera on again tomorrow though. Tomorrow i plan to visit sewing shop to get some little things for my new dresses, threads so i can sew them, zippers so i can wear them and so. Also i will maybe get a new nice fluffy pillow for me and Mr Bear. I think we need a new pillow. Mr Bear is complaining sometimes my pillow is becoming a bit flat and boring. I guess he knows best since Mr Bear rules in my bed all the time, the pillow is his throne. Now i am going to bed soon, good night. *hugs* March 12 18:28 Oh no stupid me...  I sort of did not look so carefully when i today visited a photo shop to get bigger memory for my digital camera. I have a small memory in camera and with a bigger there is room for more photos, that would be useful so camera doesnt have to be emptied often. Anyway... i went to shop and asked for a 64Mb memory, i had seen Smart Media and for some reason thought those were the ones for my camera. When i get home and look more careful at new memory and the old, they are not the same. Bohoo. I should get Compact Flash memory to my camera, not that other. The bad thing is i didnt get a receipt for the wrong memory, tomorrow i hope i can change it anyway for a useful photo memory. If the shop doesnt want memory back i have no use for it and cant afford buying also the other. But if they have the photo memory i need i hope they dont mind my mistake. If i cant exchange it in shop maybe someone else want it. Except that i also did a little other shopping today, no mistakes with them i got some frames. Frames are easier than electronics things, a frame i just measure how big i need and find a nice one. It isnt like, if i get a wooden frame it cant be used around a poster or a painting, because painting needs aluminium frame or other to work. Stupid electronics... I even saw now i an internet computer shop there seems to be a third memory type for photo cameras, Secure Digital memory. Why isnt there only one, then i could not have bought the wrong memory. They looked similar size and i didnt read careful. More positively than that i see homepage pictures are now loading as usual again. You can visit me and Mr Bear later in evening, we like to get goodnight *hugs* so click to the Live Window it will be alive in some hour. But first i have to eat something and get order in my little castle, i dont want visitors if my room is in a total disorder. *giggles* March 12 12:11 Now we have light in the Happy World. We always have light, and today the sun is shining from blue sky also. But yesterday i got the two strong lamps that should be useful when making photos. I noticed a long time ago my digital camera wants sunshine to make best colourful photos. Now there is light for cloudy days too, or if i want to capture something in evenings, and later for the photo studio room wich has no windows at all. It isnt only for my own modeling fun i want to get colourful photos, it is also for the Shop (clothes) and other things. It will be interesting to see if these two new lights make a big difference. They were cheap anyway, i looked once for professional photo lights and they cost fom about $300 and up to the sky... what did my two strong lights cost? 20$ for both of them. Sure they are not professional photo lights, but then again there is mostly no professional photographer around here to take photos of me anyway. If this works out good i will make a webpage about it for others who may want to get their own low cost photo corner. Something else i noticed, today all pictures are slow loading in my homepage. There is nothing i can do about it. Maybe then some more read the text instead... i have put up the little camera again for live pictures, but not much use now because all pictures are sloooow. Now i am going out in the sunshine. March 10 23:31 Today nothing much happened, i have been home all day thinking about this and that. Oh, here...  just to do something i never did before. Politics. Me and the hugfriends do have opinions, and this time we take the side of the United Nations. The biggest threat, right now, to world peace, is... George W Bush, president of USA. That is my opinion. If USA thinks it is above the U.N they really need to use their brains. I have very very bad feelings about that negative stuff seen on TV so much lately. War is never a good solution. Violence feeds more violence. Not many nowaday choose to "turn the other cheek" if they are hit in the face. Most people hit back. What worries me are many things. Here is one i actually heard about in a TV discussion program. If USA thinks it can do whatever it wants, including violating international law, then why should other countries care about those laws? Oh yes... what fun for the future, USA may open the door to more or less unprovoked "preventive" war. Imagine, China invades some small countries to "prevent future possible threats" and a few others do the same. It could happen. And well... anyway, this text may go away before next weekend because i will archive the Diary and start from blank pages. But think about this, words from a world famous opera singer who has a brain and dont believe anything TV or politicians say. When i thought about it, it is quite true... Well. What is the main goal for most politicians? To get elected for next period of goverment. Too many of them dont care much for anything else, or at least put it second. Because they want to stay in their positions of power. I seriously hope the Bush man is voted away from his position. I dont live in USA but i live in the World, and i dont like what is happening. Iraq is not a threat to the USA. Let the UN inspectors do their work, period. My blue friendly snake Ture thinks i should try and write more about my thoughts and opinions. Not like this in the Diary, because it isnt the right place. Also not so much about politics, more about how to think positively and other things. I know a lot of people agree with my ways of thinking, and if i take my time to carefully write it down it may inspire more people. Just to make this clear, me and the hugfriends like Saddam a lot less than Bush. Saddam should not be in any position of power. But we still say peaceful solutions are always better then violence.March 09 20:04 [link] And soon it begins... a week of big changes. I thought i would have energy to get homepage in better order this weekend but it didnt happen. Hurry and click to DI radio if you like dancey music and have fast Internet. Live Video Show there now with 3 cool DJ. I will write a little next days here so come back if you are curious about what is going on in the Happy World. Here is a *hug* for those who want one. March 05 17:16 I just wanted to write i have a new nice idea wich i hope can maybe bring smiles and happiness to some people. I have to first search on internet to see if it is a new idea or someone else has already done it. But if nobody has done it, i will. It has something to do with hugbears. So many people like teddybears, so my idea is sort of a new hugbear service. If it is a new idea and some find it is interesting, then i think it can become much fun. I also just now sent an email to the one friend i can forgive. She has until Sunday to answer my emails. After that i will just do like both she and the unforgivable "friend" do lately. They ignore my emails. Well i can do the same, and i dont wait forever for an explanation. Sunday midnight is the "deadline" wich means next week, no matter how the negative situation develops, i will move on and leave the history bag behind me. Hmm, i didnt get out today but tomorrow i will find lamps for the photo room and also write emails and try to be creative with computer. Mr Bear is happier too now, he has been upset lately but everyone in my room do our best hugging each other, all my happy hugfriends and me. So we are feeling better each day, smiles and hugs do that. This evening i will not see any scary movie, only funny tv, with cookies and milk and my hugfriends. March 05 15:15 I am beginning to get over the latest sad and upset days, so i will get back to the important work taking care of the Happy World. I still can not understand how those two persons thought when making their decisions. One of them is certainly not my friend anymore, he has pretended to be friendly for months, while at the same time craptalking about me to person nr 2. Person 2 is someone i will forgive and still think of as a friend. But she will have to convince me she can be trusted. So far she has not even replied to my emails. Wich put her too in the same spot as the person i will never forgive for what he has made happen. Well i should not write much about this, it is not happy things. But this is how i will do, even with my bestest internet friend. She has until the weekend to write me, after that i will do the same she does, and ignore any email i get. I did not make the choice to drop a good friendship based on misunderstandings and lack of internet skills. But i will not wait forever for the "i am so sorry and i want your friendship back" email. If i dont get one, i will move on and pretend these people never existed. I was deeply hurt by what has happened, but my kindness and friendship has been used this way before and i will get over it. And that is all for now about that... I watched the movie "28 days later" two days ago. So scary story, i had to stay up late and watch funny tv before i sleeped, or i would have got nightmares from it. Luckily the funny Bundy family and Seinfeld and such programs made me sleep well. Today i am going to try to get part of the modeling photo room ready for using. There will be monthly new modeling series in my fansite after it opens again. The older fansite never became what i wanted, but this new will maybe get closer to what i want. I am a bit happy because it seems already a few people are interested in the Shop i want to open. I thought to sell dresses there, the same designs i wear. But i also got an email about someone wanting to buy a gymnastics leotard second hand. I dont really want to sell many of my own clothes, some are special to me and has memories. It is like that especially with sporty clothes for many, winning competitions in one skating dress can make it a favourite and a dress i want to keep as a memory. It is not only me who think like that. But since i will make a shop and sell new things, things i create myself, then there can sometimes be second hand things also. I will just have to try and find some clothes or things i can live without i guess. Besides that, i have some super special Happy smiley photo frames. Those i will add to shop for some who want a printed photo of me inside a happy frame. And in future maybe there is a music CD or so in the shop also. Well there are many other things to get done in the webpages, i will try to spend time at computer so things happen. I have spent a lot of time lately just thinking about the negative things that happened so suddenly. Thinking about the webthings, the Happy World, sewing on my new dresses and just trying to be creative and think of positive things... that is what i have to do to get over the negativity and sadness. As the wise Prince Timothy of Welcomeland wrote me in an email... at least this is a part wich helped me do what i know i have to do. "Flowers are only as strong and beautiful as the ground they are buried in. You are a flower with legs, so I don't understand why you won't just walk away and settle in better ground." I think the Welcomeland sounds like a nice place. At least that land has a wise Prince ruling it. I wonder if there maybe are even more positive worlds or countries waiting to be discovered or founded. I hope so. Now i am going away from computer again, i have to take care of studies and other things, but there should be some webpage updating happening before weekend. March 01 13:05 One way or the other, i will get over the troubled and sad days lately. As i once wrote, i am a little flower and sometimes people step on me. It hurts, but i always grow up again. This time i will grow up a bigger and happier flower than ever. The Happy World will never go away! Me and the hugfriends only need time alone to get over the troubles, we will come back. I mean... i rule the Happy World. This is like being sick from work or something. I cant rule the Happy World again until i am happy. So just wait... *hugs* (i try a little again, i miss them!)20 Newest Diary Notes 2010 - January February March 2009 - January February March April May June 2008 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2007 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2006 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2005 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2004 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2003 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2002 - January February March April May June July August September October November December 2001 - gathering dust...  The Princess Diary - Online since May 21, 2002 |
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