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Princess Tessy - The Princess Diary - October 2007 October 31 11:12 Bloomberg.com is among the the top five most-trafficked financial sites on the Web. Well that is their description, and since me and Mr Bear snoop on that tv channel again to make the happy world economy better we thought to visit. But their website doesnt want to show up. I guess, being one of the top 5 most visited economy sites can be demanding on computer server brainys or something.  Also could be an extra busy day because this morning i just saw US Federal Reserve or some such make official another decision about interest rates. And many markets worldwide are kind of holding their breath. Not me though i dont care although obviously US dollars are becoming quite noticeably less worth lately. Euro are strong, UK pounds even more so, and i heard Canadian dollars are now stronger compared to US dollars than they have been in like heaps of years. Worrysome times for the US i just hope any happy world citizens living there dont get affected too much. *hugs* Here, me and Mr Bear are going to reach out into the harsh world of business and grab our fair share again. Or along with my new thinking, we are going to grab as much as we can until we have what i mentioned earlier. A pile of gold. Because we dont want to also have to care about dollar values and whatnot, the gold heap goal has been slightly changed. Yes it has been made smaller too but still big enough to become a rather absolute gold reserve that can keep the Happy World safe as long as i live. The new goal is simply about the gold weight, much easier that way. And the new goal is 10 kilograms, 100 gold bars of 100 grams each. Because buying too small ones just makes it more pricey per bar. And i can tell anyone that a basic principle of business is to not waste money when it isnt needed. This will around now be 1.6 million swedish kronor if bought from the source we will get the bars over time. And i guess that is... calculator where are you  around 250.000 US dollars. At least today it is, who knows about the future... but both me and Mr Bear knows that gold has a more substantial value then paper money or paper stocks or paper whatever. Potatoes are also worth a lot to anyone who is hungry, but they can not really be kept in the happy world treasury potatoes must be eaten in decent time. Oh well better start gathering some good business energy it is going to be needed. I will probably find enough of that energy looking at Mr Bear our great huggy king and knowing he will smile big for each new gold bar he can put away safely in our treasury. October 29 09:24 I do plan to open citizenships this week, if creative energy allows the first things to be somewhat completed. So it will be a little like i always felt the Happy World was founded anyway. A few brave souls setting out to find a nice quiet corner in the world, far enough away from negativity and worries to allow for almost nothing but smiles and positivity. First for citizens will be ICQ, email priority, live camera, weekly new photo, and most important in my opinion... the citizen opinions. Each little thingy can be tricky to program, but me and the little webmaster will try our bestest so there is at least something to make my citizens part of things. *hugs*October 29 07:58 A new week begins. I know a lot of people dont like Mondays, probably because most people end the weekend this day and wake up with an alarm clock. I would probably feel the same if my life was that way but Mr Bear wakes me up with hugs. He even knows when i sometimes do have wake up beeps set to some time and wakes me up nicer before beeps disturb sleep. Isnt that nice of him. Anyway... a new week and maybe a week i can get more things done than i did for a long time. I guess i will see as days go by. There will be no Halloween things this year, but unless sad things take over completely in the little castle i will still have the competition and winners get to visit a real princess tea party. Well it will be me, and all the hugfriends, and citizens who can figure out the not so easy answer get to visit through webcamera and (probably) icq chat. I have many things needed to focus on before that though, one major being finding more smiles. They are harder to find than ever before.October 27 18:58 Nothing worth writing about here is happening lately, but even if days are lacking smiles here nowadays i can share one anyway to those who want it. I hope everyone is having a nice weekend and so. *hugs* I dont know when or what happens to webthings in the near future but i will try and write something here sometimes at least. October 21 12:30 I am almost thinking, that while it would be nice if the happy world could grow big and let many find it... it might be better if it is more like a hidden gem on the Internet. A bit like 'a small world' wich i think many know about, but few know about the inside. Because that small world is supposed to be small and special. A small world is basicly just a community for the 'successful' people in the world and to connect with other similar people. While that is interesting its not what the happy world is mainly about ofcourse, like Ren & Stimpy might sing... its a song about being happy! The happy happy joy joy song! See there another smile sneaked in here. The reason for me to not care about exposing the happy world for too many is most people will not understand it anyway. On the other side of that comes a whole other thing though... if nobody else cared about the happy world and its webthings, there is no reason for me to even keep them available. But that would be kind of sad thing to do, and besides i am not sure all the many many smiles from this diary would even fit in our castle if they all had to move here from Internet. It would be fun though, heaps and mountains of bouncy happy smileys trying to squeeeeze into our home. We would find room for all of them i am sure, smiles are not so big but they can do miracles anyway. Anyway what comes with smallness but still possibly grandness (in a small way) is i wont have to feel like i cant do what i want fast enough. Wich time has proven is a problem, i want to do so many webthings but either i end up half done or it just stays ideas. Even if i try often technical knowledge will be an obstacle too, but especially after this month i just will not put a burden on myself to be entertaining much or create something big and superspecial. Maybe next year something big can happen, or on new years eve. Perhaps the small happy world creates miracles in secrecy and surprises the big world outside in the future. Or maybe it ends up just a small happy world with 10 happy people and 20 happy hugfriends. But then at least it will be a happy world. Oh well i guess i am just thinking and plopping thoughts in the diary. Wich a lot of visitors dont read anyway, and even that is a reason for me now to kind of close the happy world borders. I know already a certain friendly dog hugfriend thinks i need to be kept safe and away from certain types of people now. And the little dog is right. I have thought about it to and from lately, at least while i could avoid sad things of late... but the truth is, some hugfriends here dont think anyone who isnt a loyal Citizen should even get to look at me. I can understand that thinking, a Princess is not just anybody and isnt for any random person to look at briefly and then leave. I mean, my pictures might get worn out... but on the other side i know many tourists are nice people too. And if we hide the happy world behind high walls, or hide too well anyway then nobody will even be able to see what they are missing. Thinking about it, yes i am tempted to just have a homepage with a citizenship application form, no pictures, no diary, no nothing, and the rest is where it is, behind happy world borders. That would make Mr Bear happy too, knowing that every single person oogling my pictures or visiting webpages i created at least paid their taxes before leaving or deciding to stay. This is not really my thinking, because i dont put myself that high above everyone else even being the Princess i am. It is more the thinking of others, who place me that high up and dont think just any random person is worthy of approacing me. Either way one thing is for sure and it is something that has struck me as being a major flaw among humans to and from. In english it is five words. Dont take anything for granted. Because almost nothing is. Certainly not me. If some other people beside some hugfriends and such near me here think going small and exclusive is a good idea, let me know. I will do it. Maybe tourists learn to appreciate things more, and take nothing at all for granted, if all they can see from the Happy World is my one latest diary note. And the rest is one big secret. Just imagine... my mind tells me at once even the little live camera would be more fun to use, if i knew i could decide some hours it is on, and only citizens who appreciate me can see when, and those who are awake and have time would be there to say hello in some chat and share hugs and smiles. But now i go think about hugs because i see Lady Bear and Mr Bear want that! Mr Bear is hiding under the bed cover i go there too. I think the most happy corner in our castle is the bed corner, there is so much time for hugs and smiles there with a hugfriend or many close. One thing is for sure, i hope every happy world citizen has a hugfriend. Anyone who doesnt will have to find one, be it a hugbear like Mr Bear or a cat or a dog everyone should have a hugfriend or many. Well i go share some hugs with those i know care about me. And see what is on the tv this evening maybe. I have it back now as long as i avoid tv news the tv is good to escape things. Simpsons and such is the best. Oh and while i did place the little webcamera two days ago for a computer corner view, i am not sure it will be switched on. Because some hugfriends here want to keep me to themselves and loyal citizens only. I think they have done some valid thinking about that. Hugfriends can be very clever, just think of a Garfield cat trying to rob the fridge they will find a solution if there is one. October 20 09:10 I dont know where to resume webthings, i blame myself for that. If there was citizenships available i might have some citizen opinions to follow for a start. But i found another smile here it is. There will be changes around here, those who dont like it can just... well, i wont use words Lady Bear doesnt like. But i have had enough of many things that dont belong in a happy world. For one, i dont like greed, i do prefer achievements in games rather than real world business. So i made a quest to make Mr Bear a Linden Dollar Millionaire. Did anyone care or help? Nopes. Now here comes a change motivated by some things that just made me decide about it. I will instead start a quest to make Mr Bear... a Dollar Millionaire in Gold. Thats right. That epic quest might take 10 years, or one, or 20. That isnt important really, and i will not be cheating the Gold Reserve of the Happy World starts at nothing. This does go with our coins, and so yes 1 gold coin here will have a value in pure gold. Why do i decide to mix things like this? Real money can make a difference, they can help citizens in trouble, they can be donated to World Wildlife Foundation or similar when decided so. But more so than anything else this is just something i always thought Mr Bear should have. Gold bars, because they will look a lot more like a real treasury than a heap of boring dollar bills. Or even worse, a heap of Linden Dollars that have no real value when the company issuing them decides so. This epic quest i begin next week, loyal citizens who have faith in the happy world will get a nice share of the gold reserve whenever the goal is reached. That is worth another because both mr and Mr Bear like that thought. More so than anything that quest will be embarked upon to ensure the happy world can live forever. Not just for me, but those who care about it. Other things, streaming live camera works now maybe Java got updated. At least it worked with Firefox just yesterday when i tested. Citizens will get an average of one new photo per week to be in the royal art gallery. Anyone thinking that isnt enough 'for the money' honestly need to get some perspective on the value of My time. Oh well... big changes are not always bad. If possible citizenships, the first basic things mentioned earlier, should be done over weekend. Then at least we can try and hurry up with the citizen opinions about my Halloween appearance, and the little competition and a tea party. Even if me and all hugfriends find the cookies at tea parties the most interesting. Tea can be nice too but cookies win. Mmm i think all the waiting smiles that did not want to sneak up and be smiley while i only felt non-smiley bravely show up now. Great! They do show up when i think of positive things too, like yummy cookies. Oh and nobody think i dont know business. I can and will gather enough riches, Mr Bear will someday have a pile of pure gold worth 1 Million US Dollars. Regardless of the gold price, wich is rising faster than oil prices lately. Hello business tv channels, we will be watching you too in the future. I can watch those too with Mr Bear, hugs help make any tv interesting. October 17 22:48 Aww he is so protective the tough little dog, but i love him that way. I am not really over the recent flood of negativity and worries but just wanted to share some words. I will get over this, and Mr Bear is correct i will walk out of it stronger than ever. Nothing can stomp me down, not for long anyway. If i listed all the times in my life people or events tried to do it anyone would know I am the kind of fragile flower that always grow back up. Some flowere do that. They rise from the worst of times and find new strength every time. Some flowers sadly give up and fade away, but I am not one of them. There will always be smiles and a happy world. *hugs* And like in an email i sent lately, i honestly dont have many smiles to share. But the single one i do have to share is here! It took some days of gathering positivity between either trying to avoid thinking, or doing my best to keep thinking about positive things. I hope to find another smile soon.October 12 00:43 [link] Official Notice from Mr Bear: Our Princess is having a really difficult time lately to remain positive. I will take over the throne until she is strong enough to resume that responsibility. Trust me, she will return before the end of this month stronger than ever. I know this. Be sure of this though, Princess Tessy will from the day of resuming the throne, not care one bit about people who do not earn her care. This is a measure I have decided to fiercely protect her from future harm. No person will be allowed to even speak to the Happy World Princess from this day on without promising eternal and complete devotion. This rings true also for her so called mother. Like a wellknown person sometimes say... shame on you. Shame on you, indeed. October 10 16:29 This afternoon, my father passed away. I am not religious as far as Jesus and all that goes (i believe in Mother Earth, the goddess we are all allowed to walk lightly on) but if there is a life after the one we all live, i hope that next life is a life in a happy world. I will avoid a sad smiley, but this is one reason i just cant write my usual many happy smiles. This sudden loss is part of why i should not have to deal with happy world trade balance, but leave that to my citizens. And i think, Mr Bear will assume the ruling of happy world a while. Besides now only having memories of my father left, i also have other worries piled on me and it is just too much. So with this note i put Mr Bear on the throne a while. I know he will rule wisely while i try to feel more positive about life and the future. Big *hugs* to everyone who cares about the little happy world. October 09 20:03 I had no energy for creative webthings today so far, but i will try to escape sad things and think positive a while so i can get something done. I might be writing a few less smiles than usual a while ahead, that has its reasons but i will try not to bring sadness here. This is after all, the happy world. And i know this is trying its best to cheer me up. Thank you little smile. Other than that, dinner then try to dive into webthings a while. I hope everyone else is happy and free of any big worries. *hugs*October 08 21:48 Mr Bear must have thought i would be too tired if i was up all day when days lately are nights, he tricked me with a lot of nice hugs. He is such a carebear but i like that. Instead i will try and get to bed earlier tonight and ofcourse get up before normal lunch hours. Not so good is that today i feel completely out of energy, and i need energy lots of it. Maybe my hugfriends have some to share though, they always help when they can. Here is how things will go. Tomorrow i finish the first basic citizenships. After that Mr Bear hopes all happy world citizens hurry up and do what they can about our rather sad looking trade balance. Mr Bear knows ofcourse the worries i have gotten piled ontop of me just lately and so he along with me not only want but demand every citizens do their duty to save the happy world from crumbling to pieces. There will be a trade balance meter, that meter must get to 100% before the end of this month. Otherwise I will end up with one worry too much and i may just give up. I dont want to have to do that. I want the happy world to rise from the smallness it has been too long and become something grand. And i want many happy citizens and hugfriends be part of it. *hugs* The meter is not there because i cant deal with trade balance myself, it will be there because it is the only of late worries my citizens can actually assist with. That, and being friends ofcourse and sending me lots of smiles and hugs and nice postcards as soon as the post office opens. One less bother for me (and Mr Bear ofcourse! ) equals a much happier happy world. October 08 08:37 Another day, is another day to try and dont worry be happy. It should be evening for me now, but i have things to do after some decisions and so i will try to get them as much done as possible. Besides i want my evenings to be evenings again. Mr Bear doesnt like i try to stay up and get all tired, but i really should. After a warm bath i go outside in fresh autumn air and try to trick my mind to think of it as a nice morning walk. A morning walk to go get a bag of candies, i really need some candies now. I actually havent had any candy in the castle for some week now, and i didnt miss it until i happened to think about some favourites. But otherwise fruits i think are great candy too. Or home baked cookies. Or just nice food. I think i will start looking for natural candy, dried fruits and such. But now i need a bath. October 07 19:04 Mr Bear just reminded me before falling asleep last night (wich was morning hours...) that i really shouldnt try to carry the burden of the happy world trade balance all on my own. Because it might crush me, and Mr Bear doesnt want that. I would never want Mr Bear crushed either. *huuuugggggs* And so it was for once quite badly thought out before spoken, that i doubt citizen taxes would help much. Because they might help a lot, especially if some citizens realise the happy world is in trouble and do what is needed to help solve things. Or they might help a little, but a little help is still a little help. And when troubled times come around it is a lot better to share it than try carrying it all alone. I do have to put my mind elsewhere too and do my part, but i will surely not be so foolish to not make available and accept care from my loved citizens. *hugs* Mr Bear is a wise bear. Just today i got more negative sad news from real world... someone i know has 6 months left to live. Cancer.  The Happy World really needs everyone who likes it to get together now, or your Princess and Mr Bear will end up with no choice but to fade away into nothingness drowning in tears.October 07 00:06 I may just have gotten a better idea for the other dimension. Its an idea about the real world, the 'behind the scenes' so to speak. I will think about that. I thought earlier to make that an option for my citizens actually, get to know the real me and maybe we become friends. On other hand, people in the past have done the opposite and so it would be with that risk it is done. Anyone requesting to get to know the real princess and not liking it would be tossed out of the happy world anyway. But those who like me for who i am, i would truly value as new friends. I dont mind living only with all the hugfriends lately, but some days they dont say much. Oh well... i go outside for a walk in the fresh autumn just not a long walk because its night outside. I know one thing, those who would get to know me better, and still like their Princess, would probably understand exactly why i live in the happy world. There is no other place for me.October 06 19:30 Saturday and while evening hours it is going to be lunch for me soon. I must say i find it interesting how many click over to the other dimension, and how few are staying here. I almost knew that would happen, even so i care a lot more about the happy world and those who actually read my diary will know the other dimension (for now anyway) serves little purpose other than a place to dump old (and some new) photo art and things that i dont want here. It is actually a small part of a something much bigger and will be left the way it is. Now me and the little webmaster move on to the bigger parts of the big plan, that will need a lunch, and then all hugfriends and me have a little meeting with pen and paper too. Oh we got the tv back now again, i realised negative tv news can be ignored and all of us here missed the funny tv. We need our funny Simpsons and that! If i happen to see something sad in tv i can try and cure it with 3 hours of funny tv. Although i am quite busy taking care of some royal duties to make sure Mr Bear gets less worried. It isnt easy the happy world is so small and the real world so huge. But i really will open the first basic citizenships tomorrow before bedtime and then maybe next week me and hugfriends dont have to be so lonely. I hope everyone is having a nice weekend, it is ok here but a little strange with days being nights and nights being days once again. Maybe it is the hug-vampire taking over me in time before Halloween days? I will let citizens decide also if they prefer a hug-vampire or a fairy princess for Halloween days. I think days are different in US and here, but happy world can have a whole week of it. If someone here knows for sure they will become a citizen, and what they want to see me being for Halloween then send an email. Both things require some sewing, fairy would need 2 days that much i know, and in fact i would prefer having both appearances ready. October 04 20:09 More time for happy world a little while, because it is very important. Without smiles and hugs both me and Mr Bear might get grumpy and worried about many things. But we live in the happy world and here we can at least be happy while many things all around are the way they are. I dont think the real world will ever be as nice as the happy world. Just take the fact that if someone randomly goes to hug someone they see just to be nice, the person getting a friendly hug would just be surprised, or shocked, or yell and call the hugger crazy. I think there is a hug-day though, if there is then why on earth dont i have the date etched in my mind. I will find out, maybe its just here in Sweden but i vaguely remember a day for hugs. Anyway i just thought the little webcamera could show my future citizens what it will look like to dine with your Princess. Doesnt it look quite cozy visiting the little castle and surprising me with something yummy you get to tell the castle chef to prepare in advance and in secret? It really does not matter what a citizen can spend on a dinner with me, if you are a poor hard working citizen barely able to pay your taxes there are a lot of basic foods chef can make. *hugs* Champagne glasses dont really need to be filled, and wine glasses well they can be filled with nice cold water. Water is free, and in many ways the best drink with food since it lets the food speak for itself. Water is natural. But then again it is ok to tell chef to cook things for a proper regal dinner too. Entry meal or whatever it is called. Appetizer, fine wine, somewhat exclusive main course, spectacularly yummy dessert, ending it all with (for me) a sweet liquor and coffee and perhaps the gentleman would prefer well aged cognac and truffles. If possible i will make times available for both some breakfast, lunch, and dinner. If possible computer two, only keyboard and monitor ofcourse, will be on my companys half of the cozy dining table. But... reading ICQ chat, typing, and eating at the same time might be a bad idea. At least i think there should be not so much talking while eating something warm (or melting icecream!) since typing is a bit more conflicting with eating than talking would be. Anyway i think this is a fun idea, and after eating is done the little camera can just follow along to the cozy sofa perhaps for more chatting than eating. And now the somewhat gloomy looking trade balance moves to Mr Bear's homepage. Mr Bear doesnt have much for a homepage yet but he will sometimes soon. I think it will be a very nice homepage, how could it be anything else with Mr Bear! *hugs* Thank you Mike from UK for friendly email, i hope to find time for email writing soonish. *hugs* And hope everyone has nice days. *hugs* My days now are quite busy but that can be just as fun as lazy, in a different way. October 03 19:38 Nothing beats happy bouncy music when you have to leave happy world a while to take care of business. The UK Happy Hardcore Show. Di.fm Live right now, and until whenever it ends but Wednesdays that channel has a lot of live DJ's. Its gonna be alright... oh i agree with whoever is singing.  October 02 23:34 Feeling bored and decided to try and find all the more or less old photos that belong in the other naughtier dimension. Dont be surprised if you go there to snoop around and find you cant leave. At least i am having fun finding them in the depths of computer brainy. *meow* Maybe time for happy world tomorrow, but beside some little creating here and there i have to think of Mr Bear first now. I cant let him have any more worries about trade balance. *hugs* October 02 03:04 There, plain to see where i stopped caring about business. Also plain to see that happy world trade balance needs a little upswing, up there to around where the smile is would be a good start for this month. Citizen taxes i doubt will be able to move that graph upwards much at all, wich is why i will just have to resume business. Mr Bear will this month make it public how this goes. I know Mr Bear will stop worrying once trade balance is at least up to where smiley is, and so even if i am the only who cares i will not stop trying until that is how things are. Green is obviously the preferred trade balance, but without saying anything about numbers, bumping back up to green is not done in one month. Still i hope October can cheer up Mr Bear some, i know I will be trying my best! October 02 01:56 Head is better now, and some late night dinner will help me find new energy. Things here will get a little delayed, that is because i will make myself terribly busy this month making sure Mr Bear has no worries. Because of that, the live camera will be snooping in our bed corner. That is because i will want nice goodnight (or morning, or lunch or anytime!) hugs from those who care. What i dont want, is being snooped on while i take care of the happy world trade balance. To do that well i just have to think, act, and be on my own. But then since i take care of that from home all hugfriends and the bed corner are not far away anytime. And i will get some more things done in homepage before i focus mostly on underlying worries. Ofcourse anyone can help happy world trade balance look better again, if citizens help i dont have to bother my mind so much. But to make sure, i wont sit and wait. I can lead by example and you will see that. When it comes to gathering money for Mr Bear i can be just as good as Mr Trump or any other businessperson. It will actually be fun to resume some business, i have hardly given it a thought for 2-3 years... October 01 22:49 This was a tough little adventure. I walked too and it was raining, adding to the seriousness of the whole thing. I dont know what to think really, but i do know it really is better to know what you have then rely on guesses. And so even if it is the last thing most people would want, i rather have Lady Bear be my mother instead of a 'real' one that appears to not care about me much at all. Its really quite sad, but i am not crying. I returned the 3 year old birthday gift that once in time was the best i ever got, nowadays it just became a burden and lost its shine. I gave it back with all the sadness, loneliness, depression, angst, maybe some desperation too. I hope my mother enjoys that. Although she did not appear to care, and just as always became a porcupine. Just impossible to make her understand how she just behaved totally uncaring for way too long. Oh well. Now i know who i have around me in good times and bad. My hugfriends. Still some words that come from a dancey music but still are stuck in me as quite true... 'she said she wouldnt cry, that was really just a lie'. I wont cry though, i have not really had a mother for about two years now anyway. Not sure that is even something to be sad about now. I will need a lot of hugs and positive energy from all the hugfriends now though, i see them aaaaall waiting on our cozy bed. Because they care about me a lot, just as i care about them. Hugfriends would never behave like my mother. My so called mother is now going on the page with things i dont like. And that is the end of that. Lady Bear ofcourse will be moving to the page with things i like. Oh and i dont think citizenships can be opened exactly today, more like a small opening after midnight. Because i really need to rest my head and have lots of hugs. I even got a little headache from the strainous thinking done between leaving the castle and returning.October 01 18:59 I snooped back in time myself now, thinking maybe i did mention October 1 2004 in this diary wich i did vaguely. Anyway what i do today is not easy, but it has to be done. I told some people around me sometimes it is better to know who you can rely on in bad times for real, than to think you can lean on someone in times of trouble and you find the person is just like thin air. Then when you need support you lean on air, wich will make you stumble and fall. I dont need that. I rather know who i can trust, that way i also know who i should care for or even spend time thinking about in return. I rest a little while before i go do this, then no matter what the confrontation goes like i go back home and use what is left of energy to open citizenships. They will be really basic for a start, but also Mr Bear will keep citizen id numbers in order and so there will whenever needed be a priority where founding or long time citizens get first in line. Simply because long time citizens will have supported the happy world the most. Now i go gather some energy from nice *hugs* with my hugfriends, all of them in a big hug-heap! I will not take much of their positive energy, because i dont want to waste it where i am going. I will gather more energy from hugfriends when i get back to our castle. Because then i will use energy for positive things with no risk of it being wasted on rather sad things. October 01 01:58 Actually, the good October 1 was 3 years ago. I just checked because i realised it probably was three years ago. It must be my mind trying to think positively and making it two years. How time flies away, it really does. Either way, i am so going to return the favour my mother did me this October 1. That is how i do things and i find it quite ok. If someone treats me bad i will return the favour, sometimes even, sometimes tenfold. Ofcourse i hope there will be some knights in shiny armor signing up to protect me in the future, so i dont have to fight on my own. Not that i cant, i am very capable of returning negativity when thrown my way. But i really prefer being protected and kept away from such things. It does the happy world no good if negativity reaches me. October 01 01:07 I will try and get to bed earlier this night than lately, tomorrow even if i have to also do many other things i will also open citizenships and some of the things that makes available. Still it is best to remember great things can take time to create, but since i know my slowness i think it is better i let people who want to be ruled by me (and Mr Bear and Lady Bear) get their citizenships from October 1. October 1 is actually a special day for me of wich i have written nothing here. That is because at first some two years ago it was a very very important day, and the day after was my happiest in a long time. Over time though, and until the following October 1 i found out the reasons i felt so happy one year earlier were probably not caused by care and actual honesty. Someone asked my forgiveness, i answered i can not give you that right away you will have to make me notice you changed your mind and are worth it. This person did not change her behaviour, and so tomorrow, or rather today since it is past midnight... I will walk and tell this person she lost me now. The person? My mother. So for whatever it is worth my family now is Mr Bear and Lady Bear. Becayse both my so called real parents just plain are not worth my care and hardly even my friendship. So tomorrow, is one of the two remaining 'get even with past annoyances' that i will deal with. The last one, well that is something completely different not worth mentioning here anyway. But since October 1 has been a special good day, that turned into a sad memory, i just want to make it a Good day again. I hope more than one person hurries past happy world borders to become one of my loved citizens right away tomorrow. Or at least next week. Also look out for what Mr Bear has to share next week, and do your very best to make him happy. Mr Bear will be happy from hugs, but there are other things that bother the happy world king too. I expect every citizen to do their best for the happy world, one single princess can not carry the burden of a whole world on her shoulders. 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